Friday, November 30, 2007

i'm posting in school now..

finally unlocked my blog

cuz no matter how i block it

tat dumb boy will always try to get in..

haha.. opppx :X

anyway sorry people that u all cant access it

i know u all care for me..

thanks for asking though...

alright..

baby and i were having quarrels but its ok already

there were ups and downs but i'm glad we overcame it

my boy.. you are already forgiven long ago alright

so dun brood over it too much..

mummy loves u k..

haha.. anyway your contract last till 31st december

chop and stamp!! :)

many things were happening

or rather i should say

many thought are invading me recently

some thoughts could be solved easily

but others just kept me thinking..

maybe i'm too sensitive or wat..

but i hope to keep them here..

maybe just saying it will make me feel better?

hmm.. recently there's this news about the dragon boat thingy..

and i suddenly just felt life is so fragile

i mean.. i can just be happily laughing with u now

but in a while later.. i may just vanish from this earth..

i wonder if i were to pass away suddenly..

have i left any footprints in anyone..

what will my things become? will my parents throw or keep?

my accounts? should people delete it or not?

where will my body be cremeted..

ok.. i know i should not be thinking soo much!

just the thought of me plague with sicknesses just kills me..

i dun want to die so early.. but.. can we choose?

hmm.. so to conclude

i must cherish my time

and treasure the people around me

boy.. i have just taken the step forward..

its a really big step for me

i hope u will appreciate

anyway just meeting u everynight delights me

just want u to know u mean so much to me..

lets keep it going..

although we were so much closer in the past

somehow i do regret wat we do not have now

somehow i just hope we were much closer

somehow somewhere...

we were so close that we could share anything together

talk non stop and and have fun..

but those were in the past

and i know we cant have it now...

i just hate the ways things are now..

maybe we were never meant to be

i just want to let u know i miss u...

i miss this friendship....

i yearn to have a very gooood girlfriend to whom i can share things with

but.. maybe its just so difficult...

i do have many good friends now..

but.. everybody is busy with their own things..

i dun wish to bother people with my stuffs also..

aiyooo.. dunno la..

but the friends i have now..

i just want to thank you..

i love u girls..

[treasuring u very much]

~ { 10:17 AM }
Cheers!! :)

Thursday, November 22, 2007

A Day Of Unhappiness

Sorry Dear, for nth telling u abt the cake stuff.I know we both play a part in this relationship.i know if does not take 1hand to clap.but i sometime tend to be relax.i know u very unhappy that i do thing without telling or updating you.but i really did not mean any harm dear.i really hope u can take into conisderstion abt this case can..i promise i next time will be more throughful and more caring toward u k.We promise to run the race tgt dear.don't we forget.i have not forget my promise for u.

PLEAS FORGIVE ME DEAR!

~ { 1:42 AM }
Cheers!! :)

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

i hate liars!!!

just hate people lying to me whether wat colour it is..

if u chose to lie to me..

u have to bare the consequences...

i dun care if its a white lie or black or red or watever.

a lie means a lie...

if u start lying the first time..

u will lie and lie and lie..

a lie covers another lie = to a big lie

i know when u tell me the truth...

i will get VERY ANGRY..

however.. it only last for a few days and we will be the same again..

but if u chose to lie..

i wont trust u anymore... and i will be TERRIBLY UPSET..

hmmmm..

just so terribly pissed over something today

guess i must learn to forget!!!

argh!! angry.....

[so terribly upset]

~ { 11:03 PM }
Cheers!! :)

i'm blogging in school now..

having lab test in a while time

but luckily its an open book test (and we were not suppose to say it) shhhh

haha.. so i shall enjoy my time first

hmmm.. i fell in school just now..

saw the blood gushing out and it was so disgusting la

damn painful.. SO UGLY!!

haha.. anyway i should be used to falling down

cuz i got lots of scars on my leg liao..

grrrr.. not prettty :(

but.. thanks wen,qin,fl,jay and gab for their concern

they were like rushing to me and ask if i'm ok

i was so touched!!

muakx

now is the 6 week since school reopen le

year 3 is really lot more stressful than the previous years..

though classes are better as teachers will let us go earlier..

the stress is still there.. is like must score better or wat..

S T R E S S ! !

should overcome it sooooon...

maybe after 2 weeks ba..

hope i dun get sick cuz exams are round the corner

yup! exams! hate the word..

i really hope i can do well this year cuz i have been slacking for the previouse years

i'm scared my GPA will suck

i want to get a good job and everything but guess its impossible

sian.. i just cant handle stresss

baby is starting work like tomolo

i must be happy for him cuz he found a job

i know a job will mean alot to him

so i shall give him my support

i should cast aside the petty me and look forward with him

i shall be an understanding gf

i must not keep looking at things that are not happening..

i must i must

i hope i can do it..

baby.. i saw your effort these few days..

thank you so much..

i love u more and more each day!

i hope nothing will affect us...

[its you i am missing each and every day]

~ { 12:53 PM }
Cheers!! :)

Thursday, November 15, 2007

my mind has been running like 100km per hour

thinking of this and that

thus.. giving me this bloody headache every night

sometimes when i just couldnt stand it

i'll just run off to bed!

my eye is still sore for over like 2 - 3 weeks?

the doc said is wat infection and need like 1 week to rest?

but i dun see any improvements!!

argh! maybe i should eat the medicine regularly!!

i need my contact lenses!!!

ahhhh.. faster wash the stupid sore eye thing away!!!

have been hanging out with baby for the past few days

and i guess i am addicted to him

everything just seems to ease when he is around

and i am starting to worry wat will i land myself into when he's not around

although he is right and its correct for him to find a job

but i dunno why am i still worrying about?

why am i becoming SO AUNTY to keep worrying abt things!

hahaha.. ahhh!! i should stop it!!

i guess when he found tat job..

i should also start finding a job to keep myself busy

and.. if he really finds tat job...

i think my brain will start to run wild

ahhhh.. i dunno wat to do...

i must support him but why is it so difficult..

stupid julye =[

hmm.. i dunno why am i so unhappy this few days

everything just isnt right..

i dunno why am i always getting scolding

whatever i do will always be wrong

why cant someone appreciate me for wat i am

i hate all those saying and scoldings

it just makes me more demoralized =[

am i really such a bad girl?

jobs jobs jobs

i need them

need them for money and to kill my time!

i hate lonely days

i hate to think

[ keeping mum / i just feel like crying out loud ]

~ { 11:32 PM }
Cheers!! :)

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

JASON TENG

i'm sorry

dun angry le

can?

~ { 9:33 PM }
Cheers!! :)

Saturday, November 3, 2007

finallllly

today is 3rd NOVEMBER

it means MR JASON TENG is done with ARMY

ok.. i went to his ceremony thingy..

there were many SMART guys..

cuz all were wearing uniforms...

but.. baby just caught my eye.. aweeee..

he is ever so handsome la.. :D

but the zhong dian was how stressed i was la..

went there early and lucky fangling was there..

so was talking to her and catching up on stuffs before her bus came

and my heart was beating so fast!!!!

went there, met up with his family

kept talking to her mum and his sister... hahaha..

saw the parade and lastly.. went to eat dinner with them...

SO PS LA.. then they keep asking me to eat.. ahahahha

alamak.. hope it went well anyway...

hmm.. was somehow thinking..

why am i a girl that keeps thinking non stop..

i can because of a small thing and THINK of alot of things..

and after tat small thing.. i ok liao.. then when i'm alone

i jiu will think and think and think and get angry

super stupid right.. i know i know..

but i cant help it... and i really hate it man...

cuz i was upset over something in the morning but i just brush it off

so i told myself to stop thinking.. and well.. i forgot abt it

but when i was alone.. i started to think again

then i got upset.. and i wanted to scold someone..

hahahha.. i know i am damn irritating la..

but.. i told myself.. i must stop thinking and calm down..

so i did alot of amazing things to divert my attention!!!

ahhh... I AM DAMN DUMB LA.. =[

chun hui:

haha.. ya i remember u told us before..

but this XXX teacher hmmmm..

VERY GOOOOOOOOD DE

he teach us will how to use anti-spyware..

very GOOD right.. haha

anyway i will delete later.. hahaha

steph:

ooo.. tat was last year..

u know the napfa cert only last for one year?

i found out like a few days ago.. haha

then my tat cert expiry in jan.. before grad.

so wasted lo.. i need to take again

and i DUN WANTTTTT :)

anyway good luck in your napfa too

dajie:

haha.. u know my dumb boy keeps irritating me with tat sentence :)

he keeps saying i scared u dun friend me.. kuku man..

hahahahahahahahaha

i still sucks at parking :p

anyway thanks for the FOOD tat day..

had alot of fun with u all..

meet up soon alright.. hahaha

[take one step at a time]

~ { 9:21 PM }
Cheers!! :)

Thursday, November 1, 2007

drove to school today!

daddy was sweet to lend me his car

i love him la.. haha

and was so PAI SEH in the morning la

i was parking my car..

then got a grp of my friend-de-friend walk past..

then i jiu decided to stop adjusting..

then i went out of the car to take my things

another grp of my friend-de-friend walk past

then one ass said - park not straight wan lo..

WHA LAOH!!!! assssssss

i park straight or not your business meh?

in the end.. i went to repark it!!!

arghhhhhhh..

THROW FACE LA. sway day.

ok.. today is napfa and i decided not to go

haha.. shall go to the retest..

I HATE NAPFA

and. nobody likes it too..

boooooo~

anyway tomolo baby got his ord ceremony

i'm so scared.. pressssured la..

got tat very very queasy queasy feeling in my stomach

hmmm.. shall not elaborate

and yea.. the long awaited day is finally here

although a part of me is so happy he is finally out..

another part of me just hope there isnt any changes...

i know once he ord.. there will be many changes

there will be many quarrels and stuffs..

hais. i hope we will quarrel less and things wont change as much

i have to have more confidence in him and myself..

i really hope nothing is going to go wrong

i'm really scared but i must shake away those thoughts...

[i dunno wats wrong but i hope its only temporary]

~ { 8:30 PM }
Cheers!! :)

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