i dunno why issit call a quarrel but..
somehow i just want to give up..
i thought she might just grow up and stop being childish..
she is just tat selfish girl so long ago..
no one to teach.. find my own tuition teacher..
i thought i was going to fail my studies..
and now? like wat the hell?
u blame me for not being a good sister
for like wat? not teaching u?
its really a silly excuse to use..
your future is in your hands..
when can i help u till? until u grow old?
wat if one day i just die? who will help u?
the one taking o level is you not me.
u have to learn and or how are u going to grow up?
ok.. fine.. lets say tat day..
u ask me this question on physics..
refracted ray? like it has been 3 years since i last touch it..
i ask u to let me see your tb so i can read first
and wat did u do? u flare up? for like wat?
say i didnt want to teach u?
well.. HELLO.. i need to recap my memories!!
u said your friend's sister keeps teaching her?
and do u even give me the chance to teach u?
whenever i ask u study.. u either goes out or watch tv
would u ever listen to me?
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can u please grow up and learn to respect the people around u
well.. for your information..
i am your ELDER sister
u are suppose to respect me..
but u just treat me like shit.. not even me.. your parents
can u please look at yourself at how u treat them
do u treat them as your parents
they feed u till u are so old ok
so u got no rights to scold them
u got no rights to even yell at them ok
and if u do.. can u please apologise..
u dun even have respect for others..
do u even earn their respect?
how u want others to treat u..
please treat others the same..
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u always take my things without even saying please.
u take them like its yours..
but.. when we needs it..
we take yours assuming u would allow..
but.. whenever u know.. u will flare up..
like come on.. u always take others things.. do we even flare up at u?
mum once ask me
'jie jie, u think i should wear mei mei shirt? later she sure scold me right'
can u imagine mum saying that? she gave u money to buy but wat she gets?
and whenever u take her things? does she gets angry?
dont say her only
wat about me? u always take my things without permission
fine.. i let u.. but whenever u spoil them..
do u even apologise.
i rem once u spoil my favourite shoes.. and guess wat?
i got a slap because of tat from papa..
for like wat? do u even realise they do care for u too?
do i even have rights over my stuffs?
lets say today the pink bottle..
and tat was my favourite.. my one and only bottle..
and u took it without permission..
u used it for 4 mnths? have i ever scolded u?
and i have to use another bottle cuz of this?
and when i took yours today.
u flare up? like come on!!
i know its a small matter and i shall not be petty
but HEY! can u please look at your own attitude!!
there is always give and take can.
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u blame for me not being a good sister for like?
not teaching u O?
for dad scolding u?
for letting u wait for 30 mins?
have u ever thought of wat i have done for u? NONE?
i was blame by mum and dad ever since u played bball
they still blames me now for u not studying..
well.. hello.. i'm taking every blame for u
and i always help u to say good things.
i'm always helping u to lie to them..
u never appreciates it..
do u still recognise i'm still your sister?
do u love your family?
i cant always help u.. wat if one day i'm gone?
can i leave u to take care of our parents?
can u please grow up and start to do things not cuz of yourslef..
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i think i have to just give in to fate..
maybe god put u in this family so u can grow so we can help u
a family is always a family..
but...
hais.. forget it...
i just hope u will grow up
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i know watever above is only small things and i shall not be petty
but hey.. these small things adds up from years ago..
i know i should be not be petty over these things as we are a family
maybe just let be rant about it...
it has been really heavy and have to let out..
so to the rest who are viewing this..
pardon me..
